Saturday, February 11, 2006
ARGHHHHH!!!!! REALLY FEEL LIKE CRYING AND SHOUTING MY HEART OUT.. I FEEL SO SO SO VEXED AND SO FRUSTRATED AND SO ANGRY AND SO SAD AND SO DISAPPOINTING AND SO IRRIATED JUST BY EVEN THE SLIGHTEST THING. WHAT THE HELL. I DUN WANNA FEEL LIKE THIS BUT I JUST CANT STOP MYSELF. I FEEL LIKE I AM GOING TO BREAKDOWN. WHAT'S WITH ME SIA. I DUN EVEN KNOW WHAT I AM DOING. WHY SUDDENLY EVERYTHING BECOMES LIKE THAT?! I SEEM TO BE HAPPY-GO-LUCKY. YES BUT IN ACTUAL FACT THERE ARE TIMES WHEN I DO NOT. BUSINESS STATISTICS - I SEEM TO BE DISAPPOINTING YOU TIME AND TIME AGAIN. THE LAST LESSON IS A TORTURE TO ME. I DO NOT KNOW WHY BUT I JUST FEEL I DID NOT DO WELL. MAYBE I JUST SET TOO HIGH A HOPE AND EXPECTATION FOR MYSELF. THAT CAUSED WHY I FEEL THIS I GUESS. I JUST CANT STOP MYSELF FROM FEELING WHAT I AM FEELING. I DO NOT WANT THAT. I TINK I MUST UNWIND. OH WELL. I REALLI HOPE EVERYTHING WILL CHANGE FOR THE BETTER. ESPECIALLY WHEN NOW EXAMINATIONS ARE DRAWING NEAR. HOPE I WILL BE ABLE TO TIDE THROUGH THIS "CRISIS".
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you do not know how much I love you
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