Friday, October 27, 2006
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Today was a long day.
Thought everything will turn out fine.
But...
Everything WAS fine.
But...
Nevermind.
Today was kind of a... what should i say? A sad, a emotion-stirring, a mixed feelings, a helpless, a frustrating day?
Really did felt alot of mixed feelings stirring up in me. Especially sad and helplessness.
Been thinking alot and kept being distracted.
Feelings like tides or even waves gush up high overwhelming me, unable to breathe.
Rush down so low, taking away all that belong to me, leaving me there stranded on a nobody's island, alone.
So bare, so exposed.
Feeling so naked.
Dont want anybody to know what i am feeling. Cause i myself cant help.
It's just so on and off. Such that i myself start to feel i dont know what. Nevermind. I just cant find a word to explain myself. Only i know it. =) That's good enough. I seriously dont know what's the problem. Where on earth does this tweeny-weeny disgusting little buggy lies? Can you just shoo off? Nobody likes you. Only know how to destroy. Evil. We merely ask to be happy. Is that too much? Dare not think about anything anymore. Just hope that everything will be fine and well. Let nature takes its course bah. Haix.
Just wanted to be alone.
YYY
you do not know how much I love you
4:17 PM