Boo. I am back again. haha. mabia lacks the self determination and discipline to blog. and finally, when all things accumulate, she finally has the decency to blog. bahh. As usual, she will try to remember what had happened, i mean interesting ones, to her.
Went Velvet Dragon cause Zouk was full house due to public holidays the next day, National Day. It was ladies' night still. However, thought Velvet Dragon which is ex club momo will be going to be so ulu. No. It's very nice i thought. Well decorated. Even the toilets. Seriously, imagine royal toilets, sofas in the middle, blink blink toilet seats, pool facilities (i mean billard), blah blah blah.. How nice can it be? Good place for chillouts. Haha. Funny things happen. Cause went with a new clique and ya. And funny things happen on the dance floor. So funny that i wanna laugh hard. Besides, sad things happen too. First time i cried in clubs bah i think. Sheesh. Oh ya, went to Marina Square the open air food court corner there to watch NDP. Haha. Funny experience with people LIFTING A TRAY WITH HOT SOUP OVER YOUR HEAD AND TRYING TO SQUEEZE WITH THE CROWD?!!?! Imagine that. What if it falls over? Goddamn. Oh think nothing else le bah. Oh ya. One aunty wore the same shirt as me. Saddened. Not that i'm old fashioned okays, just that the aunty.. the aunty.. abit more modernised mah. Bleah.
Punish me to give you kisses when i lose in games like pool.
So it was after exams. Kinda sad. Cause i didnt finish it all. Like wth. I was so damn depressed after SM paper cause i knew i could do it, i should have done others first. Damn. Whatever, i hope i didnt flunk it badly. And i mean all. I know i can do it. It was only 4 papers. So quite okay. Yeah. And it's now hols.
Kiss my forehead like you always do.
Went to Zouk. Thought that with what i am now, i am not going to. But it happened. =) And, however, sad things have to happen when i am like in my own world. lalala~ Gosh. It's okay. Not going to remind of sad things. bahh. haha. Keep seeing Ben Yeo in ZOuk. Haiyo. Got wife le still go Zouk. Hhaa. But i love him no matter what, he's sooo cute with his afro hairstyle. Power shit.
Smell my hair like you always do.
haha. Seems like i keep mentioning clubbing stuffs. sorry ar. I know i have become a hardcore clubber. Still thought i keep saying my friend last time. Opps. Sometimes, it's getting over me. Nono. It's damn bad. And i cant let it affect me. Right. I wont. Okay. Went to DXO like last friday. Only me and wen went. Thought it was okay. But friends go like HUH when they knew it's only both of us. Okay. To OUR surprise, we were shocked to know that when we step in, r&b songs keep flooding. Really. And the crowds, woohoo~!! It's soooo unlike the last few times i went to DXO after that glory night. And ya, more chinese this time. More handsome ones of course. Went for rounds and rounds of drinking. Shiat. Nothing seems to work on me now. That day at Zouk, drank more and stronger of the Special Dam than my usual Amsterdam. It did not work. That time at DXO, wen seh already i still so awake. Gosh. How can i become seh? Tell me. -_-" Nevermind, back to topic. And ya, met alot of friends. Haha. My poly ones. And my secondary school ones. Got to know this person from my friend. Haha. Looked for him when i went to Comex. Yeah. He's there. Lol. Anyway, ya. A number of fishes though. Gosh. haha. cool. from other races one too. Cool man. Hah. There's this cute one. Dance so cutely. Hha. And some bastards though. Like became centre of attraction for wee period of time. Ah whatever. Yeah. Then went to eat Mac breakfast at BPP. Nice. Nice night though. Indian man kept smiling.
Say you'd never leave.
I need a job. I am jobless. I have to work. Cause i have no money. Please? Drop some money for me from the sky. Stop dreaming la. No work. No income. No go out. Bahhh. Cruel.
Dont you miss? He's waiting for your return.
Oh ya! 1 very interesting thing. TO me only bah i guess, is that i borrowed a book from the library! Haha. Okay, it's been donkey years since i last touched a storybook. And yeah, people you all can go buy 4D already. Plus, there's something which i dont understand why. I never borrow any books why is there a fine of $0.15? Weird. Absurd. Crazy. Abnormal...... -flipping dictionary-
I miss you. Really.
Some random thoughts. Sometimes, people think life is really unfair. True tho. Some get so much better treatment. Wheareas some do not. Some very successful in their lives, no matter what. Whereas some do not. My love life was never smooth. Haha. My friend told me about how he felt and i really felt sorry for him, cause his wasnt any better. To him, it's like very dramatic. It's like, a drama, which only happens in d.r.a.m.a.s. Haha. When i mention of him, nah, he just popped up and talking to me on msn. Lol. so funny. Okay. Ya. I am almost 20. Bahh. Okay. I shouldnt continue. Cause i sound so despo, when i am not. Haha. Hopes glimmer. Hopes dashed. Times and times like this. haha. Wohoo. Maybe cupid wants me to wait. And the one will be a nice one. Really. Haha. Then i shall wait. =) Ya. Wait..
You said friends.
But nah.
It's not gonna happen.
Hope you are happy.
on the way to school that day
the cotton stud on my FIRST mp3's ear piece dropped
it's on the bus
right infront
fear and anxiety and nervousness was what i felt
i told myself, i am never going to get a new one to replace it
it kept losing, not once but times
and i found it back everytime
i was so scared
that it'd be gone like that
i prayed and hoped that the stud was still there when i alight
god bless, it's still there
it's safe by my side now
and yes
this is how much i value you
yes. it was me you saw.
it was so different
from the last one when i waited for you till you're done
a day i'd call the sweetest
to this that we are nothing but strangers
i broke down after running away
tears fell uncontrollably
i cant help it
you think i can?
this is how much i value you
and i am still calling you "dear" in my subconscious mind..
be there..
but i know you wont..
YYY
you do not know how much I love you
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